| 剛剛完成CRE的中文應用試卷...
我不得不承認...
我可真是一個外國人...=.="
在20分鐘的小休裡...
我走到試場外的空地...
抬頭觀望四周...
都是頗為殘舊的公共屋村...
不禁令我想起當年<<古惑仔>>電影裡的"劈友"場面...
很久未嘗試過獨自沉思..
欣賞四周的一動一靜...
在公共屋村中間的遊樂場...
幾個小男孩在奔跑...你追我逐...
一個伯伯座在長椅上打蓋睡...
另一個伯伯則在不斷的大聲怒罵..
(當中包括很多髒話...而大部份都是關於別人的媽媽...)
另外又有一個女傭拿著一袋又一袋的餸菜經過...
又有兩個英姿颯颯的警察巡邏...
望著這屋村百態...
多日來的悲哀和不快都好像平淡了不少...
他們的生活都像是十分簡單..
無論男女老幼...面上都帶著歡樂的笑容...
望著...又想著...
人生...究竟是什麼?...
人又究竟為了什麼而活著?...
我們一開始無憂無慮的降臨在這個世界...
慢慢學識多了...煩惱亦多了...笑容也隨之減少...
大家都彷佛了解到人生這個大染缸的恐怖...
學生擔憂學業...
上班一族擔憂事業、家庭...
從前純真的歡笑都被歲月不段地磨蝕...
我有時也真的想回到過去...
放下所有煩惱的包袱...
尋找那失去了的微笑...
人生其實是一連串的過程...
我們窮一生的精力把每個過程做得完美...
令每一個結果都美滿...
但其實..."過程"和"結果"究竟誰較重要?...
每個人都有著不同的想法...
有些人會偏重"結果"...
"結果"失敗..."過程"無論怎樣天花龍鳳也不再重要...
但我卻比較重視"過程"...
因為我堅信..."沒有過程，怎會有結果?"
"結果"未必時常成功...
有時後...經過多番努力...結果仍是失敗...
縱使這樣...至少過程中我也有盡力過...也有努力過...
仍可驕傲的抬頭...面對新的挑戰...
而其實人生和愛情也沒什分別...
都是一句..."沒有現在...又怎會有將來?"...
那麼人為什麼活著?...
就是要...
努力做好現在這個"過程"...去換取將來豐盛的"結果"...
活得更美麗...
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| 原來我沒有我想象中那麼堅強... 究竟這個個決定是對是錯?... 從電話屏幕的倒影... 隱約看見自己哭腫了的眼睛... 過臉頰上半乾涸的淚痕... 為什麼所有的東西都能令我想起從前?... 是我的想象力豐富... 還是我們真的經歷了這麼多?... 只有睡眠...才讓我逃避繁亂的思緒... 但可惡地...正正就是這些繁亂的思緒令我不能進睡...
望著窗外陰暗的天空...
很想歇斯底里的咆哮一聲...
只可惜...我連發聲的力氣也沒有...
我已無力走下去...
原來下一個決定都是這麼痛苦...
究竟愛情是什麼?...
是我不了解愛情...還是我不了解你?...
我已無力走下去...
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| 是我不了解愛情...還是我不了解你?...
從前幼稚的我以為...愛情是個避風港...
無論開心﹑煩惱﹑不快時都可以走進去...
在避風港..我還以為能得到支持個安慰...
但原來避風港還是這麼殘酷和現實...
當我開心的時候...避風港會欣然招手...
但是當我稍一失敗﹑不快...
避風港不但把...從前的開心快樂忘記得一乾二淨...
還要在傷口上狠狠的踢兩腳...
然後便把我拒諸門外...
什麼開心浪漫...
什麼分享喜與悲...
原來都只剎那幻象...
這和上班工作還有什麼分別?...
只有在成功...才能得到老闆施舍的一個微笑...
稍一失敗...便是冷酷無情的解僱信...
我想我還是適合獨個兒單身的生活...
起碼將來一天辛苦工作回家後...
不用繼續另一份「工作」...
在我的心裡...又多了一根永不磨滅的刺...
我已不知到能否與你繼續下去...
現在的我只感到無比心痛...
原來...
愛情還只是一份工
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| London
This probably will be the last time that I will go to London....(well...in my uni life..of coz...)
In my 3 year uni life, I have been to London three times (including this time)...each time with a different feeling.... The first time is at Christmas two years ago, when i was still a...well...i can't say ugly...coz honestly I haven't been ugly ever in my life....so I should say I was a little bit less handsome back then. That time in London should be the sweetest one amoung all three. And the second and third times are both in my third year. umm...I should say last time was quite nervous...as I was in London sitting the Swire Management Trainee written test, which I fucked up quite badly. As for this time, the feeling is quite normal...actually not much feeling at all (except that I was quite scared about the swine flu)... Just want to have a walk around after the long tough boring exam period... May be it's summer time, London is packed of tourists. After all these times, London had not changed a bit. The Tube still stinks a lot. I used to think that London Tube is a time machine...coz everytime I feel like I was back at the WWII period. The stations are all so old and cracky, just like they had just been boomed by the Germans, and the whole thing might actually fall down. I was wondering what the world would think when London hold the Olympic Games two years later. After shoping for long, I have spent 100 pounds in less than 2 hours. What a shopaholic! As for the last stop of my 2-day London trip, out of curiosity, I went to Lancaster Gate to find a hotel. The hotel which my sweet Christmas started two years ago. And to my surprise, it was closed down. I can see through the windows, all the furnitures are removed. Standing in front of the same hotel after two years, a lot of memories, which I thought I have forgotten, suddenly came rushing out again. Those were the days... The happy beginning of the painful end... Anyway...the passed is the past. The most important thing is right now... I have my sweet lovely darling wife waiting for me in Hong Kong. And I know that this is going to be the love of my llife. So I should put all these old memories into a box and put it in the deepest corner of my heart.
Will I go London again in the future? Who knows?....
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